Those who know me well know how ANTI CO-SLEEPING I have always been. I like my pillows, my comforter, and an ice cold room. Co-Sleeping? All that'll have to go! I picture a bare bed, and the aircon on 24degrees. NO sir ree... no thank you.
Cahaya Rain is a GREAT sleeper and from the day we brought her home, has slept in her own bed, in her own room. However, coming to Sydney, I knew that I would be once again sharing a room with her, just like the early days when I slept in her room. I was not looking forward to all the little noises, grunts and groans and shifting about. Whoever coined the term 'sleep like a baby' obviously had NEVER slept with one!
Big Nanny had rented a cot, and I thought all I'd need is my earplugs for a day or two until I got accustomed to the noises. Little did I know that my tiny tyke had other ideas in store for me! She just WOULD NOT sleep in the cot. Was it too cold? Was it too lumpy? Too soft? After much persistence and many tears later ( not just hers!! ) I relented and I have been co-sleeping with my Bubba for 10 nights now!
All I could think about in the first few days when I was getting no sleep was....* oh no how are we going to undo this when we get home?*
Co-sleeping parents are rumoured to get no sleep or at least, bad sleep. Let me attest to that - its' true! But you know what? Its' not for the obvious reasons. You don't get any sleep because if you are anything like me, I find myself constantly looking at her, watching her sleep. Watching her chest rise and fall. Reaching out to touch her when she cries, overwhelmed by the power of my touch and my ability to calm her just by letting her hold my finger. Gazing at her perfect little face, so animated in the day, yet so serene at night. Bright almond eyes by day, almost oriental in twilight. That button nose, those rosebud lips.
As I admire my handiwork, I find myself amazed by her beauty and perfection, her peace and innocence. I also find myself wondering AGAIN, oh no how are we going to undo this when we get home?
But this time, it is I, the anti-co-sleeper advocate wondering, can I EVER sleep alone again, now that I have experienced this secret nighttime connection with my sleeping beauty?
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